So I know I’ve been all over the place an kind of MIA on all social media with the exception of reviews, so I’m extremely sorry! But I have a goodie for you, a brand new little something that I just wrote called ‘The Ocean Between Us…’
Life has been a little weird. Had some ups and a lot of downs and I’m working on me during this little hiatus. My health also took a turn and I recently had to have an emergency surgery so that’s another thing.
I know I could make a million promises to post more original work and excerpts from current projects but I kind of hit a mental road block with all the medical stuff that’s been launched at me when my back was turned lol. So I won’t make any promises on dates for much of anything. That means no schedules till I’m ready!
The only promises I’m willing to make are 1. That I won’t ever stop writing, even if it means that I can only manage to finish a chapter/project a month and 2. That I will keep on keeping on. I’m to stubborn to let anything keep me down permanently.
I will say that I’m currently writing a lot and that is kind of recent, maybe a week or 2 of this and I’m really happy about that. There is still a lot to work on and a lot of projects that have just popped into my head recently and I apparently don’t know how to pace myself. But anyways, I have no eta for either Knock Me off My Choos or Birth Curse book 1, all I’m willing to say is that a lot has been written and fleshed out and I am going to look into traditonal publishing for at least Birth Curse. I will of course keep you posted as things progess but that’s about it.
Now for the good part.
Like I said, I’ve been writing a lot and I kind of fell in love with this heartbreaking poemish peice that I just penned not even 30mins ago so I thought I’d share it with all of you!
Without further ado.
The Ocean Between Us…
There’s an ocean between us with frightening and crashing waves.
There’s an eeriness about that I can’t will away.
How can 2 people who know so much about each other,
Two souls that have spent so much time together, be such strangers.
We were once so close and physically you are no more then 7 steps away.
How can we be so distant?
There’s an ocean between us,
It’s rushing up our shores;
Threatening to pull me in.
Seeing each other daily but we’re really far more than worlds apart.
Its gut wrenching to be so close to someone but drift so far away.
It hurts to choke back tears, to breathe through the pain.
We’re closing more than just our physical doors.
The distance is real, tangible.
That feeling of loneliness, that helpless despair.
There’s an ocean between us and I feel that distance overwhelming me.
You are right there but I can’t even express my heartbreak
It will only divide us further.
You don’t even notice the change,
Not until it affects you
That’s when I become the villain,
The one who’s different, who’s cold,
The one creating the distance.
There’s an ocean between us and I’ve lost sight of your shore.
There was a time not long ago when I could tell you anything,
but that time has passed.
Is it the fear of losing my best friend,
The fear of losing my family that keeps me grasping at the shifting sand the waves keep washing away.
Am I an idiot for hoping things get better?
For the distance to shrink?
For a way to find that friendship we worked so hard to build?
Should I finally let the ocean that’s separating us wash it all away?
So I hope you guys enjoyed it!
Thanks for stopping by,
I refuse to be defined by what you see
To be defined by what u make of me.
I refuse to be defined by the sickness ailing me.
For you to think I’m weak.
I refuse to fall into that cliché, that stereotype.
I’m more than the image or person I portray
Your assumptions won’t make you witty or slick
They only highlight your ignorance
The world is made of more than your shallow judgments
Your preconceived notions.
But if you must judge me by what you think you see
remember the world may just judge you the way you’ve judge me….
I’m not weak, I won’t break
I’ve been through more than you could imagine and still thrive.
I don’t succeed in life to taunt you
I’m not who I am because of you
I don’t do what I do because I’ve been told to
I’m me, I succeed, I thrive and I fight in spite of you
– Tiffany M. Oharriz
As many of you might have noticed due to the message in the poem above, I’m going through a pretty hard time right now.
Between my meds, rounds of treatments and doctor appointments I haven’t had much down time or thinking time for any of my stories so I apologize for any missed deadlines or what not.
I promise that once all of this is dealt with and I can find a normal routine I will be back to the same ole me typing away at the computer for you all to read 😀
Is it too much to say that I’ve cried,
That I’ve broken down
That I swallowed my pride to ask God why
Each day that goes by
You guide me, wrapped in your loving arms
An echo of the warmth that once surrounded us all
You will live on with every breath that we take
Your memory will stay fresh with every beat of our heart
In my heart you will always stay
Forever unmoving in that special place
My Hazelnut Tree
RIP Mirta Oharriz
September 30, 1950 – September 16, 1993
Celtic Zodiac Tree – Hazelnut
You’re changing again; to a stranger I’ve never met. A stranger I’d like to forget.
Your changing again, your selfishness is stifling me, your words infuriating me.
I’m changing; to a stranger I wish I’d never met.
A lost soul wandering and hoping for a reprieve, hoping for the day to start a new.
My anger attacking you….
Lies, surrounding me.
Your ignorance is blinding me.
Do you care? Can you notice your lies swirling thick in the air?
I can’t breathe; I can’t bring myself to move not until I hear the truth.
Your words, your actions cut worse than knives, burn worse than the hottest flame.
Your cigarette stained lips.
Deception in the air, your promise ringing in my ears.
Do you even realize you’re doing, you’ve done the one thing you swore you’d never do…
You’re hurting me because it’s convenient for you.
So keep grasping that handful of sand, and let the only solid things you had go…
All for your precious little thrills.
The weather’s changed, and we’ve changed.
It matches the chill in your heart and the ice now in mine….
Just tell me this, was it truly worth it.